Child of the King

Waiting on the Lord is one of the most, if not the most difficult things to do as a believer. In those times of waiting, it seems like your prayers are bouncing off the walls. “WHY! Why! why?” When I don’t know what to say, “Why?” is the only thing I can seem to scream, ask, utter. 

The Lord’s timing is not an easy thing to wrap your head around. It is almost a guarantee that it will not be our timing. Patience is the hardest muscle to work and yet, seems to be the muscle most required. It is almost easier to be in the dark. The moment I get a taste of what I am praying for, my humanity takes over and I want to help Him out. 

“Oh! This is what you meant, Lord. I can walk that direction. Let me help you out.” 

But I hear a whisper, “Wait, I am not done yet.” 

“But Lord, I have been waiting. Is this not it?” 

“Have I not proven to you that I can provide? Have I not shown you that My way, My timing, My will is best?”

“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.“

Psalm 27:14

“But Lord, waiting is excruciating. How much longer?”

“Daughter, look at what I made, the sunset, ocean, sand and the birds, but it’s not as beautiful as you, will you walk with Me a little longer?”

I take His hand, keeping my eyes on Him, and keep moving forward.

“Better a patient person than a warrior, one with self-control than one who takes a city.”

Proverbs 16:32

Healing is a fickle thing, a journey really. One day may you feel on top of the world, and the next struggle to make it through the morning. As my mind is spiraling with the same three thoughts, panic starts to set in. Coping mechanisms… yes, okay I’ve been here before. Step one, turn on an instrumental playlist… the one that feels like the Holy Spirit is tangibly in the room… What was once comforting music, this time pushes me deeper into heartache, as it reminds me of every other time you turned to it for comfort. Or maybe it’s a reminder that it’s been a while since I sat at the foot of the cross, with every guard down, completely surrendered. 

But that is the place isn’t it? That place of complete surrender is where breakthroughs happen. Where we are released of our idea of any control we have over our lives. This posture is how we should approach every day… at the foot of the cross, completely surrendered to what the Lord has in store for us. 

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’”

Jeremiah 29:11

Let’s not wait for trials to bring us to this place, but instead start there. Start each day in prayer, asking the Lord what He wants to reveal to us today. Start in a place of surrender and see where He takes you. I promise that if we trust our Creator, He will far exceed any dream you have, any goal you’ve made, and anything you are waiting on. 

“Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”

Romans 12:12