Here I sit, drifting on a small boat in the middle of the sea. Nothing but water as far as the eye can see. How did I get here? Do I even know how to steer? Where is the destination and how do I get there?
When I first set out, I wasn’t sure what to expect. With faith as my guiding light, I set off on a journey… hopeful, nervous, ready. The first few strokes, while heavy, set the pace. The waves of emotion set me farther and farther out, until I couldn’t see land anymore.
As waters rage around me and panic sets in. I am weak. Every ounce of me screams, mourning what once was. My first thought is, who can I lean on for this? Who can make this bearable? We know though, you can’t just call a friend every time you are sad. It may be okay a few times, but eventually you will burn them out. Okay, what if I have a lot of friends and just switch off who I lean on? Sure, that could work, but how sustainable is that truly?
There seems to be a simple answer… staring me right in the face, in the heart. You can always talk to God. But he doesn’t have skin on Him… I want someone who has skin on them.
Tear soaked, I close my eyes and try to calm my heart. I twinge as the breaking water hits my face and the boat rocks with each swell. Deep breath in… exhaling the words, “Lord I can’t do this alone. I am not strong enough.”
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.“
Isaiah 41:10
I don’t have to be strong enough. In fact, I never will be on my own. He never asked us to be strong enough to endure the storm. All He desires is that we ask for help. He will provide all the strength we need.
”I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.”
Psalm 121:1-2
Have you tried it? Have you really called out to the Lord, your Father, for help, in despair, or for companionship? I promise, if you give it a try and ride out the wave of emotion, you will come out the other side with strength and peace beyond understanding.
The funny thing is, while the waves rage around me and I have no idea where I am going, I have peace that the Lord does. I trust in His plan for my life and I want His best.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27-28
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